Sunday 14 June 2009

A Ha Moment...sniff...

The subject of post-pregnancy poundage is a popular one. I dealt with it in a previous post entitled "Yummy Mummy...Not quite yet!" and another brilliant blog, Maternal Tales from the South Coast issued a rivoting post called "Pregnancy Weight- its just so depressing". I have had a depressing A-Ha Moment today that I feel compelled to share...why, I don't know...just need to write it because then maybe I'll be forced to truly do something about it. After a lovely party at a friends for their daughter's 1st birthday, my hubby, Little Miss, the dog and my mum and I went off to the inlaws for a bit of a splash in their in-ground pool. The pool is not heated and even though the weather was gorgeous, we knew a swim would be REALLY cold. But I thought, I'll brave it for my Little Miss and her maiden swim in Nanny and Grandad's pool (she was a newborn last summer so there was no swimming on the cards then). I threw swimming suits and towels and cover ups and clothes to change into afterwards into a bag, threw the swim ring in the car and away we went. When we arrived at the inlaws we bustled about getting Little Miss in her swimming suit (so cute) and hubby got in his. I then attempted to squeeze into my swim suit which, 3 years ago, was too big for me. Multiple helpings of fish and chips, chips and more chips over the last 3 years plus massive pregnancy poundage in the last year have seen that weight of three years ago off into the distance. I am no longer too small for that swim suit I brought...I am now way too big for that swim suit. And with nothing else to squeeze my gigantic-ness into or a tshirt to cover it up, I was unable to wear my suit and had to let Daddy enjoy the first swim with Little Miss. I sat on the sidelines, taking photos and laughing on the outside for my girl while inside I was appalled with myself. Why can I not get my act together? How have I let myself get this way? How am I ever going to be able to keep up with my Little Miss and go swimming and not be ashamed? By making a change...and really making it work this time. I've seen myself in some pictures from the last week (birthday parties coming out our ears) and I've thought, "Who is that woman and what tyre attached itself to her midriff?". I'm so sick of not having anything to wear! I'm so sick of wearing the same blousy rubbish to hide my pudgy middle! I want to feel good about me and be proud of the way I look! When my daughter pats my belly, I don't want it to jiggle and wobble. I know I'll never be flat-tummied or have a six pack but I would like to fit into my pre-pregnancy clothes and maybe have the struggle of affording a few new clothes because everything else is TOO BIG!!! So, starting tomorrow (15 June, 2009), I will make better eating choices, I will do those abdominal exercises I've been meaning to do, I will attempt to work out to the Pilates DVD that I got 6 months ago and I will stop being a LARD ASS!!! Who's with me???

7 comments:

  1. Oh Karin - I so know how you feel. It really is truly hideous...no one tells you this when you're stuffing your face for 9 months!! But then would we have listened to them if they had?? Probably not!! The upside (thank God there is one or imagine how depressed we'd be otherwise?) - is that we have a beautiful baby at the end of it...and we have to make some sacrifices!!! But anyway, that doesn't help the immediate problem...It's ok for people to say that it doesn't matter - stop being so vain, etc, etc, but it does matter. It's so depressing not being able to fit into your clothes anymore - you feel loath to go out and buy a whole new wardrobe because (a) you have a perfectly good wardrobe just waiting for you and (b) it would be like admitting defeat and accepting that you're going to be big forever. So instead you're caught in limbo alternating a couple of outfits...It's horrible - I have truly been there! So there are 3 real options...accept the weight and be happy with it, don't do anything about it but still crave a slimmer body and thus continue to be miserable or do something about it and feel much better...I don't mean these are your options - these are just the general options... Although I breastfed my first child for 10 months I didn't lose any weight as a result of it because feeding just made me so hungry all the time...most people say it works, but it never did with me. Other people said the weight just dropped off by being so busy with a new baby...that didn't work for me either. The only thing that worked for me was to go on a diet. A proper diet...and really stick to it. It was a killer and I was pretty miserable for a while and it seemed to take forever...but I am so thankful that I did it. But in the meantime, don't get too depressed about it - your little one is still young and you do have plenty of time. Oh, and just in case you are interested - I did a post about my diet ages ago - this is the link http://emilybassin.blogspot.com/2009/02/diet-tips.html Thanks for the mention btw xxxxxx

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  2. Im exactly the same when I look at pics of myself except I ask 'who's that woman with the giant upper arms and thighs?!' Seriously though, you have a daughter who will always love you no matter how big your tummy is! I think snacking is my biggest problem and I'm planning to cut back those to start off with rather than launching into a diet that I will probably never follow! Baby steps... xx

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  3. Hey! Don't be too hard on yourself. Just make small changes every day, nothing drastic.

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  4. Oh ladies...thanks so much. It's nice to know that there are others out there! Snacking is my downfall as well Clare! Well, that and the chips! Diet is going to have to be the key, I think, Emily. I was walking a LOT not long ago and while I lost a few pounds, it didn't fly off. I am obviously not burning enough calories. What a pain in the backside. It doesn't help that I am WELL over 30...nothing is the same after 30! But anyway, thanks so much for your words of advice and support and Rosie, yes...Baby Steps is the key. BTW...my husband still says to me "You're beautiful" which always helps. :) Cheers...

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  5. Im with you , really struggling to lose these post pregnancy pounds . Good luck to us both

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  6. I really know how you feel, ive put on about 1 stone in weight since baby 2 was born 5 months ago- sbacking on stuff all day long. Now im wearing stuff I wore when I was 4 months pregnant with baby 1 and its all too tight. Breathe in, keep smiling and good luck with the diet!

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  7. Well, Kat and Laura...the day is starting off well so there's hope! I had a nice homemade smoothie and 1 piece of bread w/ peanut butter for brekkie and a roasted veg & mozzarella pannini for lunch. Drinking water...and REALLY HUNGRY and TIRED!!! Not fun! I'll keep you posted. Thanks for the support!

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